Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Lost in the garden this time of year are the remnants of our once beautiful sunflowers. Below freezing temperatures, snow and bouts of icy rain have taken their toll, but they are still stunning to me, beating back these ravishing early days of winter. They remind me of my recent turmoil... I look and feel a bit shaky still, but I know my world is on its way back together. I learned a lot about the resiliency of the human body and spirit. You go through open heart surgery: with a four month lead up, then a 3 week delay caused by an antibiotic that threw your white blood cell count haywire, then it's a 7 day blur of pain, seemingly endless nights of nurses' visits, noise and lights, wires and tubes, adventures creeping down hallways with a walker that makes you feel like you're in your nineties. Now, you're ready to get back home. They all say you're ready: nurses, doctors and friends. Everything is a 'go' except that darn bloodchart... the harsh reality of time. You've been comforted through the week by family, friends and blogmates, and they all have been a part of an endless lifeline, it seems, that streams on forever. Finally, this past Monday, it was home, comfort, recovery and a rebirth.